sometimes i find the people in lse so boring. part of me wishes i was in school that had art, history, fashion and all kinds of students. though i must say, i don't really feel like i'm missing out or anything. shrugs.

i'm not brilliant or eccentric, nor very musically-inclined in a edgy cool kinda way, nor do i appear very reliant on others (while in actual fact i really need you). i don't do crazy spontaneous things. i like everything planned out nicely, with all e details fixed. while i do have my moments of insanity, they're usually small things that happen within the framework of a structured thing. i wish i had the ability to just cut loose sometimes. to not care so much about others, not in the sense of what they think. but rather how will my actions affect others. while i always say london makes me feel so free, i realise that due to my own actions, it is a structured freedom, of which e rules are self-imposed. hence the sudden hunger for that one year in usa. to cut loose. to lose those inhibitions. before i buckle down and start working life..